Today, I choose to bare my heart.
I felt guided to do so after receiving certain messages through an unexpected autosuggestion from a YouTube channel, Konstantin Tarot, which I was not even subscribed to initially. I sought clarity within about whether I must share this part of my journey publicly — and received an inner affirmation to go ahead.
For a long time, it may have appeared to the outside world that I was only battling external legal and structural challenges arising from disputes involving builders and their networks within various systems. However, my lived experience over the years has been far more complex and layered than what was visible on the surface.
Over time, I began to perceive that certain deeply personal relationships around me were also not aligned with my well-being. Through hindsight and reflection — especially while studying law and learning to analyse events retrospectively — I started connecting patterns that had earlier felt too overwhelming to understand in real time.
From my perspective, the period between 2009 and 2011 marked the beginning of a series of events that gradually affected my family’s emotional, financial, and mental stability. Trust was eroded, doubts were seeded, and divisions emerged in ways that made it difficult for us to see the larger picture clearly or respond cohesively.
My father, in good faith, took certain decisions that unfortunately had significant consequences for our family. In the years that followed, I personally felt targeted in ways that deeply impacted me — mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and financially — including situations that required legal defence and protection.
The loss of my father during this prolonged phase remains the most devastating turning point of my life.
That period became the catalyst for what I can only describe as my already-initiated journey through the Dark Night of the Soul. Alongside personal grief, I was navigating legal complexities, unanswered questions, and the overwhelming task of making sense of what had unfolded.
As I moved forward — taking up the study of law and beginning my journey of healing — I found myself engaging in deeper introspection. I do not consider myself a conspiracy theorist; I come from a science-oriented background. However, I do acknowledge having intuitive sensitivities that have become more refined through meditation and healing practices over the years.
Gradually, through self-reflection and connecting experiential dots, I began to reinterpret past events through a new lens — one that included emotional, psychological, and even spiritual dimensions of human interaction and intent.
Interestingly, on multiple occasions during this journey, I came across messages — through different mediums — that resonated deeply with my internal state at the time.
One such message was recently received through a psychic, Mr. Paul Aoge, whose readings have often appeared in my awareness at moments that feel uncannily aligned with my personal situation. In one such message, he conveyed that what once felt like carefully placed obstacles in my path had not ultimately succeeded — because unseen guidance was protecting and supporting me.
There was a time when I felt entangled in legal challenges that were overwhelming and difficult to navigate. However, through grace, perseverance, and the process of learning — including studying law — I now find myself in a position of greater clarity regarding my rights and responsibilities.
What once felt like a complex Chakravyuh that threatened my peace gradually became an opportunity for empowerment and understanding.
In that very video, Mr. Paul Aoge also referred to Psalm 23 — a passage that holds deep personal significance for me, and one that I had previously shared on my blog.
Awakening of the Lioness: A Journey of Empowering Realizations and seeking Justice!
And wrote about Psalm 91 in this Blog:
Signs & Synchronicities - Ways of Communications from The Divine!
And Truly All Evil Plotted Against My Life To Pin Me Down To Make Me Unsuccessful - Turned To A Blessing In My Life!
And So, Today’s message from Konstantin Tarot felt similarly timed.
Many of the reflections about exhaustion, abandonment, and the need to pause resonated strongly with my recent feelings — especially when I had just been contemplating taking a brief break from my responsibilities, yet feeling guilty about doing so, while theres a lot till pending to be done!
The suggestion to rest, to step back without guilt, and to honour healing as part of the larger plan brought unexpected comfort and knowing what I ought to do and that I am on the right path at the right time!
I share this here not to accuse or impress, but to document — for my own journey, and perhaps for someone else walking a similarly uncertain path.
If even one soul whom I may never meet but are navigating their own Dark Night finds a ray of hope through this account — a reminder that guidance, healing, and strength can emerge even when the path seems invisible; planting seeds of hope, healing and transformation - then this sharing will have served its purpose.
I have always believed myself to be a Warrior — and I sincerely hope that fellow seekers and Warriors of the Light find their way safely, guided and protected, just as I have experienced through faith, healing, spiritual mentors, and ancestral support.
Forever a Humble Servant of The Divine!
