There was a time when the very thought of birthing a Child, filled me with fear and resistance. I was terrified — not of the act of parenting itself, but of exposing a new soul to the same emotional rollercoaster I had endured in my life - constantly navigating a world shaped majorly by scarcity mindset, bitterness of betrayals, pressures, fears, insecurities, confusions, competitions and difficult choices in every area — personal, professional, financial, relational.
Being an empath and deeply sensitive since childhood, I unknowingly absorbed the emotional chaos around me. I had no understanding of the energetic world. I was constantly matching others' energies, not knowing where or how to draw boundaries. I lost my core self in the process. Despite my inner yearning to live authentically, I often found myself swept away by external influences — social media, peer pressure, societal expectations — without realizing it. I didn’t know what self-love truly meant. I was stuck in what I now call a state of “Sleepy-Doing-Consciousness” — endlessly acting, reacting, and coping, without clarity or inner connection.
During that time, life felt incredibly difficult — not only with myself but in dealing with loved ones, clients, and the world in general. There was a constant tug-of-war inside me:
My mind, hardened by painful experiences, wanted to be practical, bitter, and defensive — to adopt a tit-for-tat survival mindset.
But my heart, my innermost essence, knew this wasn't the way. It yearned for something deeper, more meaningful — something that couldn’t be found on the surface of life.
This inner conflict deeply shaped my early view on parenthood. I held a distorted belief that no soul should be brought into this “big, bad world” — I didn’t want another being to go through the torment of this internal battle. I carried this subconscious belief for years, even up until 2024.
After my father's passing under painful and suspicious circumstances on 5th September 2020 — the moment that activated my Dark Night of the Soul — I withdrew even more. I became aloof, hesitant to socialize, and steeped in spiritual reflection and self-isolation.
Yet somewhere within that darkness, a spark began to grow. The miraculous experiences that had begun subtly earlier in life began to strengthen and intensify. My recent spiritual journey brought them into sharp clarity. These revelations became a catalyst — a snowballing that awakened me to the magnificence of the Universe, or rather the Multiverses, as I intuitively perceive it. This shift filled my heart with endless gratitude and awakened me to a truth I had never fully grasped before:
"The Universe / Supreme Consciousness has always had my back through this all"
One moment that always stays with me is a story my mother often shares. My father was riding a scooter with my elder brother (just 5 or 6 years old at the time) standing in front, my mother seated behind holding me as an infant. The scooter skidded on a slippery road. Everyone fell and got hurt — except me. I didn’t even get a scratch. My mother shielded me as best she could, but looking back, it feels like divine intervention — a spiritual safety net I didn’t know existed at the time. And now I know: I have never been alone.
Looking back through the lens of Awakened-Being-Consciousness, I see now that my spirit team — my unseen support — was always with me. Holding me. Protecting me. Guiding me.
My Awakening Has Unfolded in Stages
But it was there, at my lowest, that Grace found me. Through a series of unexpected encounters and spiritual teachings through all beings - Human as well as Divine, Spiritual Masters interceded and redeemed my Soul from lowest lows. Their presence and wisdom lifted me, anchoring me into a deeper truth. Most recently being the AHA moments and breakthroughs I have had through Vipassana, Pranic Healing And Spiritual Teachers - Savla Guruji, Dr Savla, Smith Indira Brahmabhatt, Saya Win Myint in Vipassana, Master Stephen, Grand Master Choa Kok Sui, Shri Shalin Bhagat Sir, Donna Eden and Jeffrey Allen. All These and the Grace of All Spiritual Teachers became the adult phase of my soul’s journey — not just awakening to my true self, but beginning to embody it fully to the core of my being.
In truth, it is because of her — the one who struggled, survived, questioned, and kept going — that I am who I am today.
And this made me begin to see life not as a punishment, but as a canvas of endless possibilities, illuminated by divine intelligence and loving guidance.
As Tony Robbins wisely says:
“Life doesn’t happen to us — life happens for us.”
And now, with eyes open and heart aligned, I truly believe it.
Most significantly, my entire perspective on giving birth to a Child, has now shifted.
Where once I feared bringing a soul into a dark world, I now see the urgent need for more awakened, compassionate beings — children born and raised consciously with love, to grow into positive productive adults with focus, awareness, and higher purpose — to help humanity and Mother Gaia evolve.
In a world still clouded by bitterness, confusion, and fear, there is a growing need for more Being-Consciousness souls — who live from awakened inner light, love, and divine wisdom - acting as living anchors of healing for humanity and sacred stewards for Mother Gaia. And Through their authentic presence, helping co-create a world aligned with higher truth, compassion, and unity.
To me, this name represents:
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Enlightening – the continual unfolding of truth, light, and higher understanding - Kaizen.
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Meraki – the soul, creativity, and love infused into everything we do - giving Uniqueness to each one of us
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Pegasus (Unicorn hybrid) – the ascended being of Purity who bridges Earth and Sky with unmatched speed, embodying purity, movement and divine miracles.
This symbolic rebirth in 2019 became the seed that weaved together a series of miraculous and mystical experiences, guiding me step by step toward the Awakened-Being-Consciousness I embody today. It transformed my entire perspective on life — from resistance and fear to trust and divine flow.
Forever A Humble Seeker Of Truth & Divine
Dr Racchana D Fadia
Meraki Pegasus
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