There was a time when the very thought of birthing a Child, filled me with fear and resistance. I was terrified — not of the act of parenting itself, but of exposing a new soul to the same emotional rollercoaster I had endured throughout my life. From childhood to my teenage years, through medical school and into adult life, I was constantly navigating a world shaped majorly by scarcity mindset, bitterness of betrayals, pressures, fears, insecurities, confusions, competitions and difficult choices in every area — personal, professional, financial, relational.
Being an empath and deeply sensitive since childhood, I unknowingly absorbed the emotional chaos around me. I had no understanding of the energetic world. I was constantly matching others' energies, not knowing where or how to draw boundaries. I lost my core self in the process. Despite my inner yearning to live authentically, I often found myself swept away by external influences — social media, peer pressure, societal expectations — without realizing it. I didn’t know what self-love truly meant. I was stuck in what I now call a state of “Sleepy-Doing-Consciousness” — endlessly acting, reacting, and coping, without clarity or inner connection.
During that time, life felt incredibly difficult — not only with myself but in dealing with loved ones, clients, and the world in general. There was a constant tug-of-war inside me:
My mind, hardened by painful experiences, wanted to be practical, bitter, and defensive — to adopt a tit-for-tat survival mindset.
But my heart, my innermost essence, knew this wasn't the way. It yearned for something deeper, more meaningful — something that couldn’t be found on the surface of life.
This inner conflict deeply shaped my early view on parenthood. I held a distorted belief that no soul should be brought into this “big, bad world” — I didn’t want another being to go through the torment of this internal battle. I carried this subconscious belief for years, even up until 2024.
After my father's passing under painful and suspicious circumstances on 5th September 2020 — the moment that activated my Dark Night of the Soul — I withdrew even more. I became aloof, hesitant to socialize, and steeped in spiritual reflection and self-isolation.
Yet somewhere within that darkness, a spark began to grow. The miraculous experiences that had begun subtly earlier in life began to strengthen and intensify. My recent spiritual journey brought them into sharp clarity. These revelations became a catalyst — a snowballing that awakened me to the magnificence of the Universe, or rather the Multiverses, as I intuitively perceive it. This shift filled my heart with endless gratitude and awakened me to a truth I had never fully grasped before:
"The Universe / Supreme Consciousness has always had my back through this all"
One moment that always stays with me is a story my mother often shares. My father was riding a scooter with my elder brother (just 5 or 6 years old at the time) standing in front, my mother seated behind holding me as an infant. The scooter skidded on a slippery road. Everyone fell and got hurt — except me. I didn’t even get a scratch. My mother shielded me as best she could, but looking back, it feels like divine intervention — a spiritual safety net I didn’t know existed at the time. And now I know: I have never been alone.
Looking back through the lens of Awakened-Being-Consciousness, I see now that my spirit team — my unseen support — was always with me. Holding me. Protecting me. Guiding me.
My Awakening Has Unfolded in Stages
December 2008:
The most painful chapter of my life began with the loss of my beloved Grandma — the soul I was most connected with. Her departure left an emptiness so profound that I began withdrawing from the outside world. In that quiet desperation, I found myself signing up for a Vipassana course in April–May 2009 — not with spiritual intentions, but as an escape. Little did I know that I would stumble upon what felt like the Holy Grail: a reconnection with the blueprint of my Soul, which had long been yearning to express itself through thoughts, words, and actions. Vipassana became the infant stage of my spiritual journey — a spark of consciousness was lit.
2017 and the Following Years
Losing my Mentor in June 2017 was like being cast adrift in the middle of an ocean with no anchor. This heartbreak shattered me. Yet from that disorientation arose a strong pull toward personal development — what I now see as the teenage stage of my soul’s growth. It was a period of learning, exploring, and reshaping the spark that Vipassana had ignited years earlier.
2019–2020
A relationship, which seemed filled with divine signs and miracles, came to an abrupt and painful end. It triggered a yearning within me — to find out the "WHY" of those miracles and for liberation from pain it etched upon my soul to find inner peace. That yearning intensified after the sudden unexpected loss of my Father on 5th September 2020 under mischievious circumstances. The grief was compounded by betrayals and heartbreak at the hands of a corrupt system that stabbed the knife deeper into my being instead of protecting and supporting the principles of Truth & Justice. Emotionally drained and spiritually fragile, I stood at the edge of a complete breakdown.
But it was there, at my lowest, that Grace found me. Through a series of unexpected encounters and spiritual teachings through all beings - Human as well as Divine, Spiritual Masters interceded and redeemed my Soul from lowest lows. Their presence and wisdom lifted me, anchoring me into a deeper truth. Most recently being the AHA moments and breakthroughs I have had through Vipassana, Pranic Healing And Spiritual Teachers - Savla Guruji, Dr Savla, Smith Indira Brahmabhatt, Saya Win Myint in Vipassana, Master Stephen, Grand Master Choa Kok Sui, Shri Shalin Bhagat Sir, Donna Eden and Jeffrey Allen. All These and the Grace of All Spiritual Teachers became the adult phase of my soul’s journey — not just awakening to my true self, but beginning to embody it fully to the core of my being.
This inner evolution catapulted me from what I once lived as a “Sleepy-Doing-Consciousness” into a more evolved state I now call “Awakened-Being-Consciousness.”
And while I can see that older version of myself from where I stand today, I hold no judgment toward her — only deep gratitude and compassionate love.
In truth, it is because of her — the one who struggled, survived, questioned, and kept going — that I am who I am today.
Through the loving whispers of my Spirit Team, I have come to recognize this essential truth:
Because of who I was, I became who I am.
Because of who I am today, I am now on the path to becoming the "I Am" Consciousness — the awakened presence beyond illusions.
So with a heart full of tenderness,
I now send pure love and compassion to my past self —
Not as a separate identity, but as the brave soul who kept saying yes to life, even when it hurt.
And this made me begin to see life not as a punishment, but as a canvas of endless possibilities, illuminated by divine intelligence and loving guidance.
As Tony Robbins wisely says:
“Life doesn’t happen to us — life happens for us.”
And now, with eyes open and heart aligned, I truly believe it.
Most significantly, my entire perspective on giving birth to a Child, has now shifted.
Where once I feared bringing a soul into a dark world, I now see the urgent need for more awakened, compassionate beings — children born and raised consciously with love, to grow into positive productive adults with focus, awareness, and higher purpose — to help humanity and Mother Gaia evolve.
In a world still clouded by bitterness, confusion, and fear, there is a growing need for more Being-Consciousness souls — who live from awakened inner light, love, and divine wisdom - acting as living anchors of healing for humanity and sacred stewards for Mother Gaia. And Through their authentic presence, helping co-create a world aligned with higher truth, compassion, and unity.
This vision aligns deeply with what I experienced during the Enlightened Warrior Camp I attended in 2019. In a powerful meditative moment, I perceived a vivid, symbolic vision:
A White Winged Horse with a Horn on its Forehead (a Pegasus-Unicorn hybrid - Alicorn) standing beside an Enlightened Monk — an image that resonated so deeply that I knew it to be a reflection of my soul’s essence. In that sacred space, I embraced the spiritual identity that was revealed to me and christened myself as the "Enlightening Pegasus" , later refined to "Enlightening Meraki Pegasus".
To me, this name represents:
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Enlightening – the continual unfolding of truth, light, and higher understanding - Kaizen.
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Meraki – the soul, creativity, and love infused into everything we do - giving Uniqueness to each one of us
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Pegasus (Unicorn hybrid) – the ascended being of Purity who bridges Earth and Sky with unmatched speed, embodying purity, movement and divine miracles.
This symbolic rebirth in 2019 became the seed that weaved together a series of miraculous and mystical experiences, guiding me step by step toward the Awakened-Being-Consciousness I embody today. It transformed my entire perspective on life — from resistance and fear to trust and divine flow.
More importantly, it brought deeper clarity to my soul’s mission:
To walk the path of light with courage and grace,
To anchor truth, love, and remembrance,
And to support others in reclaiming their own divine essence —
The truth of who they really are beneath all layers of perception.
Forever A Humble Seeker Of Truth & Divine
Dr Racchana D Fadia
Meraki Pegasus
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